the End

my mom asked me why i've changed
i've turned into a stranger
a cold hearted stranger
but then you see,
its a waste of time giving out ya heart
unless its going somewhere you trust
but if the only place you trust
always lets you down
there's no where left to go

And Another

its a battle a war with no solution
reasons as hazy as the facts
theres another one dead
another young body
another child without a father
another hard life
theres someone elses revenge
theres someone elses fight
theres someone elses gun
another bad choice
another drink
another blunt
another argument
another gone
another tear
another smile
for a battle
not won

Gemini

i used to have this thing for him
buh those feelings seem to be leaving
i blame it on the siqn ,
its cause ima gemini

CHRISTMAS

Merry Christmas Love <3

Silence

you was standing here

but we were miles apart

you were distant lost these feelings

held together by a promise

that was fleeting 

we were standing barely touching

barely talking  barely listening

to the fact that

we were broken

by the words we never said

by the things you never did

by the time we never spent

fixing what we had

Happy endings are just stories that haven't finished yet

you find yourself thinking about the beginning

when its all coming to an end

and you only know how much you loved them

until you feel it all slipping

until you notice the distance

the awkward glance

the half smiles

the tears

the getting shut down

shut out

from everything

you only noticed now

when you finally have begun to accept

the end

and up until now i had sworn to myself that i'm content with loneliness because none of it was ever worth the risk .. well you are the only exception - Paramore

Last Night

we layed down
in separate rooms
in different places 
we were miles apart
yu was hours away
if yu asked me what we talked about
i wouldnt know how to explain
it was about absolutely nothing
and yet it all meant something
i laughed at the words
i wished you would of said to my face
but either way
wasting my time with you
was great

Where we were

we sat behind the trees

beneath the clouds

above the leaves

on the qrass

and stared at the city

as the lights turned on

and the sky went dark

At the dinner table

i couldnt face you
as we sat there at the dinner table
you reached over and grabbed my hand
but i pulled back i never wanted you
to see me this way

Winter

how cold and beautiful they are

falling from the sky

millions at a time

here they come

down they fall

melting as soon as they

touch the floor

Summer Twilight

I sat alone and watched as the sunset

fell behind the horizon

the summer breeze

smooth against my sweaty tanned skin

i reached over and placed my palm on the wet

brown sand

water rushed beneath my fingertips

and slid underneath my toes

it slowly creeped around my fingers falling back into place

with the rest of the ocean i pulled my hand back

where were you?

because you wasn't here

you wasn't with me

as salty water drops fell from the sky
i sat there in the summer twilight and cried

SLAM quote

Reality only reveals itself when it is illuminated by a ray of poetry - Saul Williams