Sometime

and in between arguments and fights
some where in between distance and time
I lost you
between words
sometime when you never came back
somewhere between lies
I decided I was done

Lock and Key by Sarah Dessen

" but i was sure of something, too: it's a lot easier to be lost then found. It's the reason we're always searching, and rarely discovered---so many locks, not enough keys." pq 365

perfect

we stumble to find the perfect words
but i am no longer looking
words are over rated
just show me
show me everything
the world our love
our life show me everything
i need a perfect day

Where I was

your arms find their way around retraints
i tried to keep myself in a place
where i was safe away from you
but then your arms pull me in
and i look at you
and find myself somewhere I didn't want to be
curled up beside you your body like warm sheets
you protect me from the outside from everyone else
but yourself
i found myself here on the floor on this bed
and there you were arms pulling me in
lips so close i could hear your breathing
my heart beating, racing
and then i realized
i couldnt do this to myself
i was setting this up to be something else
something that it wasn't

Table of Contents - 5

April - Best friends for Never
May - The Dark Ages
June - Realizing
July - "And as quick as it came, it went"
Auqust - Raw
September- Finding myself
October - Happy
November - The Past
December - Distance
January - The Future

John Mayer

good to know its all a qame dissapointment has a name its heartbreak warfare - Heartbreak warfare

love is really nothing but a dream that keeps waking me - Edge of desire

If I were free

and if i could be free
from this world
from the things that hold me
how would it be ?
would i do what i please
i could walk through grassy fields
look at the birds and the bee's
i could lay there &
let the world take me in
i could sit on my rooftop
watch the stars so bright
on summer nights
i could sing in the streets
without a look from a stranger
with out comments or remarks
i could be me, if i were free
i could watch the snow flakes fall
fall from the tree`s like the orange
and red leaves on autumn afternoon's
i could watch the rain
slap against my window pane
i could sit there for days
i could be me if i were free