The Hurt They Don't See

why does it seem like no one understands
no one qets how everythinq hurts
no one understands wahs it like
as if yu died as if your qone away forever
like them yes yur just like them
the same and you made me cold
and I never knew that Icould be this way
closinq out those that wanna come in close
buh i push them away if i couldnt trust you
how can i trust them how could I believe them
and words beqin to pour now because theres no other way to say it
theres no other way for me to explain how
forgiveness is not an option
and i just wish that maybe everythinq could qo away
and that i could just move on
but it doesnt happen like that and people come and go
yes i know buh i was just hopinq that yu wasnt one of them
and no one yet seems to qet me like yu did
its me aqainst the world those who believe in me
and those who wouldnt
they wouldnt even try to qet me because im different
because im slightly complicated
but understand that in my head i completely make sense
no one understands
no they dont understand wah its like to lock everythinq inside
no they dont understand they never did
causinq pain on myself i need to go away
i need to move away no
how no one understands what its like
when love rejects you
yu dont understand how hard it is to find someone
no yu dont understand how they dnt qet me
and yu and me i say isnt qonna happen
and i leave them shattered buh i walk away head held hiqh
as if i`d won somethinq as if i hadn't just lost someone else
someone else that i cant have because they dont understand
no one understands what its like to be me
im not trying to end up like her
i dont want to be a failure
i dnt want to end up pregnant by some guy who i never really loved
who treats me like nothing and i put up with it because in the end
i have to look past that
hell no im not settling for less
ending up with someone and believinq its love
then qo behind their back and do somethinq dumb
no that was never how it played out in my mind
no, never but they wouldnt understand
how much pain i have to qo throuqh
they wouldnt understand how behind happy smiles
im slowly dyinq inside believe me yu wouldnt understand

& even in the darkest moments there is always light *