First Time

have you ever been let down 
or dissapointed in the way things turned out
something you expected to be amazing
turned out to be so ordinary
so normal

all of it was anticipation it was like 

riding a roller coaster for the first time

the hype you had created in your head
about how it would be

the excitement of finally being able to ride it

and then realizing when it was over 

it was not at all what you had expected

it wasn't like the movies

my heart didn't stop 

i wasn't out of element 

i was there and it was like every other

kiss it was meaningless
pointless and forever and always
added to the list of what never was